Friday, February 17, 2012
I have spent my entire life knowing about you and knowing you on some degree and level... yet, half-way through this journey I feel the most estranged from you as though we are virtual strangers. We had one of those deep childhood friendships that has faded and become distant as the years have passed by.
As is so often the case with you, paradoxically, I simultaneously have never been so intimately aware of your constant presence. You are closer than my skin, you flow through my veins, you sit deep within. You promised me years ago that you would never leave me or forsake me you would never leave me orphaned. And I know that I know that I know, that you have made this a deep, irrevocable reality between you and I.
So why this feeling of such distance, like we need to get to know one another again. I feel like we need to start over again from scratch, yet because we have been so close and you and I are really quite intimate, I am at a loss how to begin again... do I initiate, or do you?
Monday, November 28, 2011
I long for the ability to halt time and stand in the stillness and savor the sights and smells and people and
to be able to linger
in a space and time without it racing on
the luxory to soak in the experience, especially the mundane
the everyday ones that blend together and get lost in their sameness.
when to let it all begin again...
when the full penetration of the sensations, emotions, memories have saturated the body and mind...
to learn to relish and not relinquish
to give everything
to hold nothing back while holding on with absolutely everything that is
to be completely abandoned in total awareness
Monday, August 29, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
I have walked with God on an intimate level for over 20 years and still I continually struggle with my image of God and 'knowing' how that image shapes me as a Child of God. The Bible is very clear in the images of God as He, Him, Spirit, Father, King, Ruler, Son, Master, etc., but feminine images are harder to come by, and when they are alluded to, it seems it is just that, an allusion.