Dear God,
I have spent my entire
life knowing about you and knowing you on some degree and level... yet,
half-way through this journey I feel the most estranged from you as
though we are virtual strangers. We had one of those deep childhood
friendships that has faded and become distant as the years have passed
by.
As is so often the case
with you, paradoxically, I simultaneously have never been so
intimately aware of your constant presence. You are closer than my
skin, you flow through my veins, you sit deep within. You promised me
years ago that you would never leave me or forsake me you would never
leave me orphaned. And I know that I know that I know, that you have
made this a deep, irrevocable reality between you and I.
So why this feeling of
such distance, like we need to get to know one another again. I feel
like we need to start over again from scratch, yet because we have been
so close and you and I are really quite intimate, I am at a loss how to
begin again... do I initiate, or do you?
